Intro

We are a fairly normal family, or at least I like to think so.  That may be a bit delusional at times.  My daughter suffers from Borderline Personality Disorder.  If you don't know what that is, I suggest you google it and read some of the articles about it.  Some are more informative than others.

As you might guess, we are constantly on a roller coaster ride in this family.  I have found that I need a place to put down my thoughts without being afraid of hurting someone.  Thus I started this blog.  Obviously I am not Samantha, but being somewhat anonymous means that I can get relief without hurting those around me.  Other than names and location, I promise everything in here is and will be true and accurate.

What I find amazing, is that I can love this child who brings such chaos into our lives.  Who creates so much drama, and stress, and not just for us as parents, but also for our other children.  And yet underneath all of the bad decisions, and lies, and upheaval - I see a lost little girl, who can't find who she is, and seems to have no control over her actions.  I also feel the stress of the situations, and wondering if how I deal with it this time, is going to cause another blowup.  In spite of it all I love her.  There are times I wish this would all go away (MANY MANY TIMES!!!!)  but I do love her.

Anyway...... if you read this, great.  I hope it may help.  If not great - I need it mostly for me.

Samantha