Good Day

Yesterday was actually a really good day.  My daughter and I were able to communicate in a really good way, and she was very cooperative.  She is still our of school till Monday.  She did get a lot of her homework done, and she willingly did what was asked.  We talked about a few things in non threatening ways.  She is working towards a goal.  We had a little set back on the way home from town tonight.  A friend couldn't come with us on an outing tomorrow.  We gave permission, but because of what she has been saying about us, their parents won't let them come.    She was very down.  He dad was able to talk to her and get her to refocus and use some of her therapy tools.

In talking with her therapist, She thinks that all of this is good stuff.  She sees it as a good thing that she is so rebellions, it means she is learning new techniques and fighting them, which means she knows them.  She also says it is darkest before the dawn.  I hope she is right.

We have a family therapy meeting this morning.  I hope it goes well.  She seems in a good mood this morning.

My husband posted this picture of her from a couple years ago, about when she was 11.  It is so precious.  I couldn't help thinking that I wish she could find that person under all of the confusion and hurt she has in her. I know she is still there.  I love her so much.  And she is such a wonderful person when she is not taken over by her disorder.  I know we are gaining much knowledge and learning, and good things by learning how to deal with all of this, but I also know it hurts.    I heard a man talking the other day about how God is aware of us and our situations and is there for us, but oft times won't remove trials, as we come closer to him in learning how to deal with them.  I can agree with that, but that does't mean I like it.  I do hope he helps us through it, because it is so hard, for us and especially for her.

Samantha