Mountains become Mole Hills

The past week has been difficult for Lauren.  It  is amazing what a little thing can build into and how it can spiral out of control.  The real test is to not let it, but Lauren has a real difficult time with that.  Lauren got her feeling hurt, badly over the Easter Holiday.  Instead of trying to put it in perspective and deal with it, she let it eat at her, thinking she would never be good enough.  That led to feelings of worthlessness, which led to victimization, which led to acting in anger which led to doing anything to end the pain, which always get's her in trouble.

The cutting has started again, and pretty severely.  The rejecting of God and into Wicca.  The acting out and taking revenge for perceived wrongs.  We have had family services visit us this past week, dealt with a missing credit card, a job quitting, and some intense issues with her boyfriend and his parents.  Also a return to just not doing chores most of the time.

I know she is stressed.  I wish I could help her to see that she needs to deal with things in a better way.  I know life has taught her to deal with them in this bad way, and her natural reaction is protect herself, even if it isn't really protecting but hurting her.  However, until she realizes that there is a better way to do things, and chooses to do it, she will continue to fall.  I wouldn't even mind her fall if she got back up afterwards and started really trying again, recognizing her old pattern and moving on.

I also plea with those who know her personally to try very hard to be kind.  Knowing that she has this disorder  knowing what her natural reaction will be, knowing  her trials and past, can we not be more loving, forgiving, and understanding.  The family should be the one place we are always accepted.  The one place we are loved in spite of our faults.  Included in spite of our problems.  It is the one place we should find a haven in.    This includes close friends as well.  After all, saying unkind things about someone will never help them to improve.  The only way to change a persons heart is through example and love, like our Savior showed.  He is our example and we should be more like him.

I am hoping that things improve again.  That she picks herself up and dust off and moves on.  I am hoping she can stop the cycle.  Not expecting it, but hoping for it.  Please pray for her.